On feeling all the feels :: When fighting the blues, I’ve learned through experience and through friends that talking about your feelings with someone isn’t necessarily a solicitation for advice. Sometimes the greatest solace is felt by someone’s presence and just listening.I know that this might not be much, but in your time of feeling that fogginess or depression (whatever that version may be because that word clings to us appropriately or may feel heavy-handed) if you ever just need to talk, I’m here. I understand that unspoken language you’re sifting through. I can’t bring you solace aside from being a vessel that listens and truly is hearing what you are saying. It’s tough sometimes. And it’s also tough to have to constantly be fucking resilient. Eventually, everyone has an emotional dip, sustained or otherwise.There were days when I left the house without my contacts and I saw the world so blurry but I thought that was what it was. It took me going down the block to realize that this isn’t what I remembered life to look or feel like— I just lost my vision. I had to go back because I forgot my glasses. This actually happened.Whether that was cloudiness of mind or just my hasty forgetfulness - all I know is sometimes you feel like people “don’t understand,” but soon, and with some effort of managing your way through that unexplored landscape, when you’re back to feeling closer to your former self, or get reacquainted to who you lost sight of, though right now is a version of yourself which shouldn’t be discounted, you’ll realize: I’m more resilient and capable than I once felt. That moment of realization is an accomplishment you’ll have to hold onto.Despite being someone who is self-aware, solid, and unafraid of confronting fractured kernels of truth, my emotionality is incredibly ephemeral. Emotionality, inherently, is fleeting but it doesn’t make it less meaningful and it doesn’t merit being easily brushed aside because of its transitory nature.You’re able to reach a certain level and that depth should be appreciated. The trouble, for everyday-ness, is developing a discipline over your thoughts and feelings, to remember you harness a power over yourself and that you’re accountable to your own happiness.